The other day I was on the library app, Libby, searching for a particular audiobook to borrow. It was not available, but one with an intriguing title was suggested to me: “Soul Bloom: Why We Need a Spiritual Revolution”. Even more interesting: the author was Rainn Wilson, aka Dwight from “The Office”.

I borrowed the audio book and when I noticed that Chapter 3 was called “Death, and How to Live It” I skipped right ahead.

I remember another phase of my life in which I avoided movies, articles, and books about “real life” death. It felt dark and scary; a topic to be avoided.

My favorite way to explore a new area is wandering walks.

During our EBTIECHI trip to El Valle de Antón, Panamá, I was slowly making my way home and saw a beautiful path that I felt might take me in the right direction.

It meandered through a forest, crossed a little river lined with perfectly placed stepping stones, and eventually began to traverse through what looked like the back gardens of local homes. The trees and flowers were so thick that I couldn’t see the surrounding mountains, which usually helped me ascertain where I was in relation to our casita.

Eventually I popped out of the foliage into what was certainly a local’s backyard, and before I could sneak off an elderly couple walked out their open door onto the patio.

My soul friend, Ginny Gane, asked me to speak with her Radiant Health group last week, and I was excited to share my perception of “Outsourcing versus Insourcing”. It was a joyful honor to connect with women who are ready to create radiant health in a new way, beyond the old ideas of rules, fear, lack, limitation and not enough.

The concept of insourcing came to me when I was talking with a friend who’d had an awareness that she was outsourcing her spirituality and guidance, for example: pulling tarot cards, looking up astrology forecasts, having energy work done, and listening to guided meditations.

While these are all wonderful and enjoyable tools, they had started to feel like a way to avoid tuning in. She was feeling the nudge to discover her own unique guidance and Truth, but didn’t really know how. This is the norm, as we have been taught that we are separate from Source, and thus need to outsource our beliefs, choices, and actions.

This past Friday, Ginny Gane and I recorded a celebration podcast, because we are overflowing with excitement about our Awaken Your Truth 2025 community! If you haven’t listened yet, check it out here. You’ll hear more about why we are feeling so celebratory, and also enjoy the energy of our incredible community as alumni share their Awaken Your Truth 2024 experiences.

This morning I was prompted by my Inner Being to continue to activate that energy, by writing a rampage of celebration in my journal. It went something like this:

In this Now, I am celebrating my absolute, unconditional freedom- the freedom that is inherent within me, regardless of external circumstances.

Feliz Navidad!

Today Tom and I are playing a Christmas game called “Al sí y al no” that we learned here in Medellín. The objective of the game is to avoid using the words “yes” or “no” for the whole day. You try to trap someone by asking a yes/no question, but the savvy player will respond with something akin to “of course” or “absolutely not”. Using “yes” or “no” traditionally means you have to give the questioner a gift (every time!). We decided to give hugs and then keep a tally of points. At the end of the day the loser has to buy a gift to surprise the winner!

I used to wear a necklace daily with the words, “I am free”. Every time I touched or felt it, I would be reminded that I am not my thoughts, I am not old stories. I am not conditioned beliefs.

The thoughts/stories/beliefs that felt like bondage were the “not enoughs”.

I made a mistake- I’m not good enough.

Who wants to hear what I have to say? I’m not good enough.

My clothes feel too tight- I’m not good enough.

I’m not fun enough, funny enough, smart enough, young enough, thin enough, interesting enough…blah blah blah!

All of those thoughts prevented me from the freedom of fully embodying my Truth.

My most recent podcast, Your Powerful Placebo, was inspired by an episode of the How I Built This Podcast. Admittedly, I’m a HIBT groupie. After listening to almost all of the episodes, the overarching themes that resonate with me include:

• There are an infinite number of ways to create.

• Anything is possible.

• Failure and success are one and the same.

I write to you from my cozy cabin: wood fire crackling away, nestled up on the couch with a cup of coffee by my side, pausing to watch huge fluffy snowflakes, illuminated by our yard light, fall abundantly from the black sky. They drift to earth so quietly, and gently; it’s almost too mesmerizing to look away!

I’ve just finished my morning journaling with my Inner Being, and I received revolutionary guidance and new perspectives about my desire to create an easy, flowy menopause transition. How beautiful and aligned it is to watch the easy, flowy snowflakes and know that this is the reality I am creating for my body’s transition. I can’t wait to share more of that entry in the future, but for now, I’d like to ask:

I’ve just returned from the incredible Live Your Truth 2024 retreat held in the gorgeous beyond belief home of Christine and absolutely full of women I love so much! I feel that Ginny and I will do a podcast episode about this for Awaken Your Truth, so I won’t share too much, except for one specific opening exercise. I realize that what I am about to say will probably prevent anyone new from ever wanting to attend a retreat, haha, but here goes.

We were sitting in a circle and Ginny asked everyone to fill in the blank. “I am afraid for everyone to know that …”. We were going to go around the circle and say our fears out loud! Immediately we could feel the energy in the room shift to panic.

The other morning I was completing a Yoga Glo class and I had the awareness that I was lost in thoughts about how annoying it is that traveling from Alaska often involves flying a red eye. My next thought was, “Wow, you are really in resistance!”

A moment later the Yoga Glo instructor cheerfully announced, “Create your own resistance!” and I couldn’t help but laugh at the coincidence, which then led to this topic inspiration.

Let me ask you, are you creating your own resistance?

And now I will answer for you. If you feel resistance, then, yes, you are.