To begin, I would like to acknowledge you. If you are reading this, you are open to another way, to discovering how YOU can awaken radiant health by cultivating awareness of the limiting beliefs and narratives that have held you hostage for so long.
I applaud you because at the height of my diet addiction, if I came across this blog I would have thought, “This is so strange. I have no idea what you are talking about.”
I would have closed the browser and immediately googled “the fastest way to lose ten pounds.” I would have bought the supplements, purchased the meal plans, followed the exercise regimen. I would have thought, “Yes, this plan is going to fix me.”
These were unconscious behaviors instigated by my limiting beliefs. My limiting beliefs included:
“I will be happy, accepted and free from judgement when I weigh 125 pounds.”
“Anxiety and fear of criticism are scary and must be avoided.”
Because of these beliefs, I was constantly on a roller coaster of restricting in an attempt to get rid of those last ten pounds, and then losing control with sugar to numb uncomfortable feelings.
I was proud of myself when I was restricting and I hated myself when I lost control.
The crazy thing is that I was completely unconscious of the way these thoughts and behaviors were preventing me from living my very best life.
I am guessing you can relate to the struggle. I am writing these words because I know that you can be free from the struggle.
I am inviting you to open your awareness to the unconscious because it is preventing you from living a life of unfathomable peace and joy.
I am asking you to dig deep, to uncover the unconscious obstacles that are keeping you imprisoned. I am asking YOU to do the work, because only YOU can recognize what has been holding you back from health: your ego.
Your limiting beliefs and narratives are constructed by your ego. Your ego is the thinking mind; the voice in your head that is usually occupied with judging, criticizing, worrying, blaming, regretting, wishing and “shoulding”.
I can’t emphasize this enough: the ego is not you!
YOU are the beautiful being that emerges in presence: when you are fully engaged in the task at hand, when you are in awe of a sunrise or sunset, when you are laughing with loved ones, when you are present in the now.
For many of us, these are rare occurrences. Most of the time the ego is in control, telling us the same old stories that result in the same old behaviors.
If you struggle with your weight, the ego is in control more often than YOU, the beautiful being, are present in the now.
If you have been taking the time to cultivate an awareness of your thoughts and conditioned beliefs, you might be shocked at how often you are living on autopilot, with the ego in control.
It might even feel impossible to live a different way. You might be discovering that trying to shut the ego down is like trying to shush a classroom full of middle-schoolers before their first dance.
The awesome news is that you don’t have to control the ego. In fact, that will not work. What does work?
I love this advice from Eckhart Tolle:
“You cannot fight against the ego and win, just as you cannot fight against darkness. The light of consciousness is all that is necessary. You are that light.”
You are that light! When you can pause in the present and recognize the thoughts of the ego for what they are, thoughts, the ego disintegrates!
You are then free to act in the moment with awakened awareness.
This awareness is a practice, and you will find yourself continuously getting sucked back into limiting beliefs and behaviors.
When this happens, as often as you can, return to the present. Shine that light of awareness and feel the thoughts dissolve.
You are the light that will awaken radiant health! I am so excited for you!